Friday, January 22, 2010

Monday, January 04, 2010

Decoration
As the decoration has been started after we paid the money for the construction company, the first problem occurred was that changed the ceramics, and today the second problem happened.
Before the decoration, as we are not professional in decoration, so even with the listing they given to us, we studied at the listings like heaven book, we didn’t know what is what, we thought everything is perfect.
But one week after the decoration, we found we made a big mistake, we forgot the treatment for the walk, the decoration company called me and said whether I should furnish the walk and pointed out many problem if the walk isn’t furnish the walk, like it looks ugly, it doesn’t; fit the design of the whole house, it turns bad very soon etc.
At that moment that I realized my mistake, that was too late, actually they should let me know earlier before I sighed the contract, because I am not profession in decoration, and they offered me the prices, it is RMB1500, I knew they offered me very high prices, but I have paid for the money and I could not stop the decoration at half way, I can only accept their price for my big mistake, that is another luck for decoration, to pay the money to get another insult.

Lost

I’m lost at the crossroads
and even don’t know the way
I’m heading for.
My feature is filled with many changes and uncertainties.

I’m lost in my mind
and even dare not think too much
about my prospective.
My dream can be too far to realize.

I’m lost in myself
and even all the troubles and obstacles
push me to the end of hope.
My courage and confidence abandoned me mercilessly.

Just like a kite without line.
Floating aimlessly in the sky
and never know the final destination,
until the day I fall to the ground.

the music comes and goes


the soothing sounds of a piano to a guitar the sounds they make
the feeling It brings when the piano sings playing the strings of a guitar
the times come and goes as the music grows


in the heart of those who play
thinking of that one thing that brings epiphany to that instrument you play
as you hold and take care playing with hopes and dreams the music slips through
and sings


i can't get enough of what it does to me
when i hear that sound that voice



the music she brings to my heart when I'm with her
her voice is the epiphany to my heart
holding on to her the music keeps playing

my heart keeps beating as the music is plays
i keep dreaming dreaming holding on hoping this song will never end
dreaming to fall in love with this instrument forever


she is my instrument

The sweet waitress

This noon I went to have steamed rice for lunch in a nearby restaurant for the second time following yesterday after a long break caused by an accident happened about two months ago in which my self esteem was hurt by a sweet waitress whom I had held in high regard and yet who should have called at me saying that "sir your bill is not yet footed" when I left from my seat ready to pay the bill at the entrance of the restaurant as usual - if the same thing happened to me but the one calling me was not her but any other waitress or waiter I would have common sense enough not to take offence because I would readily understood it as a friendly well-intended reminder, but as it was, I felt hurt thinking that the goddess in my heart should have taken me as that sort of person....anyway, though I knew there was nothing wrong on her part and she did not have malice when she reminded me, I still felt hurt and determined to dethrone her from the special postion she had held in my heart and never to visit the restaurant again.

Well, back to the lunch today, two small special things happened, and they are, as can be expected, about the same sweet waitress: anything, however trival it may seem to be, that happens between you and the special person that has captured your heart, would necessarily be unusual and special. One thing is that, it is she who served me the dish I ordered, and this made the food even more delicious and appetizing; and the second thing, it is she who served the dish that I ordered as take-away for a colleague and she said to me catching up with me from behind when I left from my seat to the entrance to wait for the ordered dish, oh, so sweet and lively her voice, "My handsome brother, your ordered dish is right here...oh, wait a moment, I go get you a pair of chopsticks..."

Michael, May you rest in peace

"Before you judge me, try hard to love me, look within your heart, then ask, have you seen my childhood?"
--------Michael Jackson
To the60s‘, 70s’, 80s’, or 90s’ generations, when we were ever childhood, our joys and excitements had been deeply marked with a legend name: Michael Jackson. His breathtaking moonwalk dance, high-pitched singing voice, childlike smile, innocent spirit……all that have grown up together with us, we couldn’t help imitating his dance and singing in that past but warm youth.
  As time went by, we grew up as an adult, we have to struggle to work and live with endless pressure, and we found less energy and interest on Michael Jackson. What we knew is that he now had fallen down from the throne and struggled to live amid malicious gossips and slanders, even we have lost the passion to probe whether these rumors are true or not. And then the time elapsed through the fingers silently……
  As usual, I went to the office early on June, 26 morning, and opened the computer to browse the headlines of today’s news. But what I saw is the explosive news that Michael Jackson died from cardiac arrest! It greatly shocked me, on short notice, the past memory of Michael emerged to the mind immediately, the face was beaded with tears, for Michael, for myself, for the past youth……
  Michael Jackson, who was born in 1958, was endowed with the love of music and dance. When he was 5 years old, he had appeared in his four brothers’ music group as a gifted child star. Because of his talents in dancing and singing, he soon became a standout in the group. And then defined himself as a sole artist in 1976 with the release of “Off the wall”, he then became an international phenomenon when the album “Thriller” sold 16 million copies worldwide in 1983, which is still the best selling album of all time. Within “Thriller”, there were 8 Top songs on the USA musical billboard. He had created his unique “moonwalk” dance featuring seems to be without the gravities upon him. He was perhaps the most exciting performer in the world, known for his feverish, crotch-grabbing dance moves and his high-pitched voice punctuated with squeals and titters. His single sequined glove, tight, military-style jacket and aviator sunglasses were all his trademarks. He is the “King of Pop”.
  But why Michael has been so impressive in the world is not just because his unequaled talents in performance, but also for his disputable and tragic life. When Michael reached his career peak, his physical appearance began to change drastically: His complexion, once brown, morphed into a pasty white. His once-flat nose was reshaped, his cheekbones were more difined and his hair--once curled,was completely straightened. And in the later of his career, Michael was troubled in a ceasless of chargesof child molestation. Even finally, he was proved to be acquttal, his career had been almost to an end.
  But who knows Michael’s physical change should be blamed to his sufferings of vitiligo and pigment disorder?
  Who knows that Michael as a super star, he never had a childhood, he loves child, he built his ranch not only as a refuge for himself but for children--especially those who are ill or less fortunate--to enjoy?
  The disputes between Michael’s fans and detractors should be to an end now, he has been in another world, he has been overcome by slanders, blackness and pains……
No matter you want to deny or admit, Michael is the greatest Pop Icon all time, his legacy in the music industry is unquestionable.
Michael, May you rest in peace……

Today's the Winner


The day starts off good
no thoughts are misunderstood
but halfway through the morning
i slip up and your temper starts boiling
Then you start throwing everything and wrecking shit
your a grown ass man learn to deal with it
letting your real thoughts slip as you throw your fit
telling me how im not worth a shit
'so and so's parents don't have to deal with this'
well if thats how you feel, you can kiss my grits.
I dont understand why these things unfold
i dont understand why you gotta be so cold
youve got me shivering and it aint even winter
you had to blow up one day...and todays the winner! ! !

one day I'm gonna tell it fair and square
whats wrong and whats right. I'm gonna grow a pair
I'm gonna leave this house and I'm gonna go somewhere
I've got good intentions so i formed a plan
I'm gonna get out there and become a man
I'm gonna get a good job and I'm gonna change your tone
the best part is I'll do it on my own
I'm gonna meet a good woman and become a father
I'm gonna raise 'em right and I'm gonna be stronger
I'll make it through life. though I'm a sinner
I had to grow up one day...and today's the winner! ! !